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A note from our writer, Luna Martha: So this is actually what I wish I had said to my mom. Letters hidden in my heart. Every sorry is bound to free my soul from the guilt inside my heart.

# 1

Sorry for not being the daughter you expected me to be. Instead of acting like a child, I acted like a spoiled princess, and I know it broke your heart. I am sorry.

#2

Sorry for my unreasonable whimpers and constant breakdowns. You have been suffering in silence while I buried my problems in your soul. I am sorry.

#3

Sorry, Mom, sorry for doubting your parenting skills and shaming you when you only needed help. I am sorry.

 #4

Sorry, Mom, sorry for discouraging you when you only needed a little “thank you. ” I was so ungrateful, disregarding the fact that you work so hard to keep me happy and healthy. I am sorry mom.

#5

Sorry mom, sorry for all the times you cried because I treated you like you were not good enough. I made you feel like a failure, and it breaks my heart just thinking about it. I am sorry mom.

#6

Sorry for all the times you hid your pain with a smile, sorry for all the sleepless nights you had, just because I was on your head. Sorry mom.

#7

Sorry, Mom, sorry for the times your head was a mess, sorry for my poor health, you deserve better, I know. You deserve a daughter who wipes away your tears, not the one who is the reason behind them. I am sorry mom.

#8

Sorry mom, sorry for looking for a father figure in crowded places, weighing it all on you, when your problems were even bigger. Sorry mom.

#9

Sorry mom, sorry for not saying “I love you ” enough. I know that some days it’s all you needed to hear. I am sorry mom.

#10

Sorry, Mom, sorry for locking you out of my life and not sharing anything with you. I know you only wanted to feel needed and wanted me to reach out sometimes. I am sorry.

#11

Sorry mom, sorry for treating you like a servant rather than a parent. I was wrong, and I know it made you feel awful. I am so sorry mom.

#12

Sorry mom, sorry for dismissing your advice like it meant nothing. You deserve more than that.  I should have done better, but I didn’t.  I know it scarred your soul. Sorry mom.

#13

Sorry mom, sorry for disregarding your rules and boundaries.  I can’t even explain how much it hurts me just thinking about all the disrespect I had towards you. I am sorry mom.

#14

Sorry mom, sorry for not checking on you on your worst days. I know you only needed someone to tell you, “It’s going to be okay.” But I didn’t.  I am so sorry mom.

#15

Sorry mom, sorry for not appreciating you enough to accept you just the way you are. I compared you to other parents unfairly; that was not right of me. I am sorry.

#16

Sorry mom, sorry for choosing friends over you. I know it was wrong of me, and no parent can bear to lose their child to strangers. Sorry mom.

#17

Sorry mom, sorry for all the times that I made you feel guilty for disciplining me. I know you only wanted the best for me. I am so sorry.

#18

Sorry, Mom, sorry for disrespecting your values and beliefs, only because I had my own that were slightly different from yours. I am sorry.

#19

Sorry mom, sorry for all the times I cried, the times I lied, all the times I needed reassurance and validation because I felt like I was losing myself. Sorry for all the times I yelled at you behind your back because I felt you were not good enough. Sorry for making you seem bad.

#20

Sorry mom for growing up. The older I get, the more problematic I become. The more I grow up, the more I change into this animal that I barely recognize.  I am sorry mom.

Dear Mom, I am so sorry for all the chaos I caused in your life.  I should have been the perfect daughter. I should have grown to change your life, but I only broke you apart.

Thank you for being a great mom. I love you.

I had to write if words for word.

This was written by our contributing writer, Luna Martha.

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